If others negativity affects you and there isn't much you can do about it, then how do you get past it? Well I'm not quite sure about this as of yet, but I do know a change is coming and if I have learned anything, it is that God will not give us more than we can handle. Change is everywhere at all times and all we have to do is choose to look at it in a positive light and it will change us for the better. Sometimes is does not always seem like a positive change, and sometimes it is not received well, however it can and will be received. The trick is to pray, pray for guidance and strength and things will have a good outlook. Change is not easy by any means, this I know for a fact. I do know, however that change is necessary in life. Patience is also necessary and this is a virtue that I do not have much of when it comes to stupidity and lack of common sense within people. I have a well of Patience with my children and my husband, but it is something I have a hard time working on with others. So a continual prayer for guidance and Patience is necessary for me. If you are going through a change this year remember to pray for guidance and patience. It does work and God is changing your life, just remember that.

The first blog of the new year

The first blog of a new year... I'm not really sure what to write, which direction I should go. After this past year the first week of the new year seems rather calm and relaxing. Of course there are thoughts of a new directions to take this year and so far those thoughts are moving forward. I suppose I could go forward with some thoughts and feelings, I could go on and on about other things a little more personal as well... However, I'm not sure where to start or even if I'm ready to make some statements I've been thinking about. So I think I'll start with how Christmas went and how New Years went too... As most of you know Ms. Mikayla missed her first Christmas in 2009 by being at Loma Linda, so this year was an emotional wreck for me. She was home, and we treated it as her first Christmas really... because for Jesse and I, even for the boys it really was, she was home. I cried all morning as she riped through presents and played with her new toys. I couldn't help it, my sweet baby girl was home. Jesse and I felt truly blessed to have her with us this year, to be able to play with her instead of being apart form her and then dressed in medical gowns just to hold her, as we had to do last year. New Years was a wonderful time as well. Jess and I have had issues the last couple of months and really hadn't been getting along most of the year, and it was really nice to be able to go to lunch for our anniversary New Years Eve,talk and be ourselves for the first time in a very long time. We celebrated our 6th year of marriage and reflected on the ups and downs we have had, and how much we really do still love each other. With all of that Jesse's issues have subsided, well really stopped completely and that's a good thing for him and for us. He is still attending somethings that I have asked him to attend and he is working well in these things. He has returned to the man I married and fell in love with. More drive and ambition than I have seen in him for a long time now. His humor and Patience with his children has returned and his anger issues he was having issues with have subsided... Thank you so much for all the prayers that were sent our way, God is wonderful and is merciful. I'm still attending school still doing well in it as well. Looking forward to my degree, it really has been a long time coming for me and I am pleased with the decision to go back and doing it all from home. It can be trying at times, however it is worth being here and showing my children how important schooling really is even when you are "old" like their mother. I know that with the schooling there is a light at the end of the tunnel and so much more I need to work on within myself. Okay this blog is all over the place and I think I'm going to stop now because really there is no direction here... I hope your first week within the New Year has been as peaceful as mine seems to be so far and full of reflection and the sense that things need to change... remember that you CAN change the world, but first you must make the changes with in your self first... God bless you all and keep you safe - HE will not give you anything that you can not handle it WILL make you stronger :)